I'm not perfect

Sorry for being so quiet.  Between work, internships, school, fitness, and relationships, I find it hard to sit down and sum it all up sometimes.  

The truth is that #cleanfifteen is challenging.  Not impossible but challenging.  Its not like I've promised to just at healthier or run more, I've committed to cleaning up my act all together.  Adopting a lifestyle that is productive, positive, and fun!  I find each day I do well in one department and somewhat drop the ball in another.  

I had a few friends tell me that they check my blog everyday. THANK YOU.  That is incredibly motivating to hear, and it helps me stay true to the whole #cleanfifteen thang!  

I guess today I just really want to admit that I'm not perfect. I know, shocker right?!  I am totally a phase person, always have been.  I've always been consistent in ways but completely extreme in others.  I can let my emotions take over to either motivate me to be better or to completely ruin all the improvements I made.  Do you ever feel that way?  Like you've made progress, maybe you ate healthy for a week, or you didn't skip your therapy session, or you did well on all your midterms, and then you have one off day, and it is like you have to start all over?  It happens to me.  I'm also a stress case, and put way to much pressure and expectations on myself.  I think it is from being a gymnast, that pressure to be your best all the time.  

Anyway, It is Wednesday morning and I am feeling well rested, ready for yoga later on today, almost prepared for my test this afternoon.  I am sipping on my tea, looking at my ocean view and wondering why I complain, why I get sad, and why I'm so friggin' hard on myself.  

Yoga had been going really well, I try to get to the studio every weekday but if that doesn't happen, I'll go to the gym.  Yoga is only getting more challenging now that I can do the poses properly!! But I'm in love with it, it is the perfect way to get out of your mind and channel into your body, your breathing, and the moment.  

My goal for the rest of the week is to wake up, keep a clear mind, and do not let the to do list discourage me from tackling the day.  I'm pretty we all struggle with that.  

- kb